Monday, February 8, 2010

I am Perfectly Imperfect.


-you don't need to hurry love

-Mission 40- Practice Euphoria 

So today in my usual p.J way - I took to the road in my usual fashion.  Zipping amongst travelers as if they were nothing more then the air blowing through the shag I consider a hair dew.
Arrived alive, and way ahead of time.  In a means not to waste my time I decided to go and refill my spirits with another hot cup of java..............  Well that wasn't happening.  I sat in my car in an already packed parking lot of one of the most giving places towards my rejuvenation (tim hortons)  and decided to skip on this caffeinated experience and open my mind heart and soul - and most importantly my windows - and just journey up the road in and toward a direction I had no idea of what was a head.   I felt an openness and a freedom that filled me with a sense of "YES".  This felt right.  This was right.  My heart was beating as this perfectly sunny day spot lighted my way down the road.

It's summer in my mind and heart - regardless of the temperature blowing though the windows and all together freezing my feet through my open toed flip flops.  But I didn't care.  I had the music that felt right in that moment blasting in and out of my car - and there was no one around to point me in any direction.  It was all me.......  I had a feeling of power that I had never actually felt before.  I was flying away with no sense of up or down or a means to know what was ordinary.  I was away from my thoughts and just - ever so simply - driving.

It was bizarre.  But I was able to open my mind and just be blank and lose all thought or care as I drove down a street I had never been down before.  Seeing things for the first time.  Smiling at life as it shined it's worries away with a summer sun on a frosty day.

Time was coming to an end - for as early as I tend to be - life finds its way back to reality....  But the best part about driving away - is the drive back.....  Things don't end because you find yourself facing life's obligations.  In fact - the best things seem to spring themselves up as you begin the steps backs......  My cup of java.

This particular coffee shop had a gelato portion added to it - so as I stood in line I took one last breath of my 30 minute vacation and watched families stopping with their children for a sunday afternoon ice cream to sweeten an already perfect day.

I will one day just pack up and begin driving in a direction with no intended location in mind.  But as sensibility goes - I will need to find first the means to accomplish this successfully.  But some day I will.  I know that now and I especially knew that driving.  So as a word of the wise --- Go find yourself a Neverland under that horizon.  I know I will.

- Those who live passionately teach us how to love.  Those who love passionately teach us how to live.                   -Yogananda-

-pJ

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